Saturday, 28 July 2012

Sinful Sunday - The stages of grief

It's been the toughest few days of my life, I've never lost anyone close before, the ache inside me is unbearable.

The first night, while we waited for the coroner, i made my excuses and escaped to YSL's he held me so close as I sobbed so hard I thought I'd never stop the pain. I needed the time away before facing the children.

Yesterday I escaped again, it's hard to keep up pretences so you don't upset the children at home. I cried some more and begged YSL to hold me naked, i needed the closeness and intimacy. I begged some more "I don't want to take advantage nor do I want to disappoint" was YSL's reply.

"take advantage please, anything less will disappoint" was my retort.

He made love to me and had me in a state, on the verge of tears but for good reason as I came so hard.

Today he took me to bed, immediate clear intension of raw sex, he disappeared under the covers and licked me into a frenzy, his mouth locked around my clit as he fingered then fisted my cunt until I was clawing at the bedding cumming so much, more than I've ever know before, the grief and relief mixed together making each climax so rich. He slipped on a cock ring to ensure his cock could be no harder and pulled me so close in spoons position, fucking hard yet loving, deep and passionate. The moment YSL spilled inside me was electric, I could feel his warm fill me.

After coffee, choc's and masturbating me until I was a shaking mess he spanked my cunt hard until I came once more, his cock was hard again for me and I masturbated him until I milked his cum out and covered my tummy.

It's at times like these you realise your true friends and who deeply cares for you. This week YSL has been my rock, I'm so grateful to have him in my life.

Sinful Sunday


  1. *many hugs* I am so sorry for your loss and the grief you are dealing with. I am glad you have the strength and support of YSL. Thinking of you, very much.

    xx Dee

  2. So sorry for your loss, hun... *hugs*
    It is so good to have someone to run to at a time like this to help you deal with the raw emotions

    ~Kazi xxx

  3. As always, you are in our thoughts. We wish we could leap across the ocean to comfort you in your time of need.

  4. So so sorry for your loss !
    You know where I am xxx

  5. Very sorry for your loss! It's good to have someone who understands your deepest feelings and can comfort you in the way you need.
    Rebel xox

  6. Whilst Yummy and I share a lot of great times together, I am equally willing, happy and ready to help, assist and comfort her in whatever way I can during low and distressing times.

    As Yummy has suggested at the top of this piece, as well as the more intimate periods that we have had over the past few days, there has equally been lots of hugs, hand holding, listening and simply spending time in each others company.

    As we agreed shorty after we met each other, we want to be good firm, dependable friends for each other as well as wonderful lovers.

    Thinking of you,
    YSL xx

  7. Having a rock at times like these is when true relationships show their strength. I hope you and YSL work through this well and can start to see relief.

  8. Losing someone close is the pits (I know all too well). In any circumstances it is such a sad and empty feeling. You have my condolences, thoughts, love and hugs. If you need another shoulder just let me know.

    ~Mia~ hugs and lots of xxxxx's

  9. Such a moving post. You both are so wonderful together. My love to you and yours. Xxx

  10. Oh sweety, I'm so sorry for your loss. Big big hugs. YSL, you rock for being her rock.

    xoxo Jana

  11. There is nothing as comforting as a raw, physical connection in the time of grief, I feel. Being able to transmute those feelings into passionate release is priceless. I am so glad that you have him there to comfort you in your time of need. *hugs*

  12. First of all let me say I am so sorry for your loss. Secondly I totally understand the rawness that comes in intimacy like that in grief. Losing my mother this winter the sex I had was some of the most numbing emotionally wrapped sex of my life.

  13. *hugs*

    Stay SINful
    Mr. AP

  14. So sorry to hear about your loss.

  15. Deepest sympathies - I've been there and know how hard it is.