Restrained and not allowed to cum

Got back from the office early especially to prepare myself for him. Needed to ensure I had enough time to shower, shave pussy smooth and lace myself into a corset put the stockings and heels on. I lay on the sofa ready for him, he text to say he was on his way so I slipped the blind fold on and cuffed myself. I thought I'd set the mood!

He got the message loud and clear, I heard his intake of breath as he saw me, I could feel his smile of approval then I felt the first spank land on my ass.

He discovered the bullet vibe I had between my lips as he trailed his fingers over my smoothness. He ordered me to go to the bedroom and told me I wasn't allowed to cum.... I felt the revenge about to start from teasing him so much last night.

He took the cuffs off for a moment and as he did I took the opportunity to touch myself, knowing I wouldn't be able to for hours, he grabbed my wrists and pinned them down, the restraints went on this time my hands were behind my back, I was helpless and vulnerable.

I was so wet his fist went inside without any lube I needed to cum but knew I had to hold it for now, I'd have to earn it.

For the next 2 hours his actions contradicted his words, telling me I couldn't, mustn't and better not cum, but he was doing everything in his power to make me. He alternated from licking me till I was at the edge, fisting me then using the bullet on my clit. It was like I was wired to the mains. Each time I was at the edge I was begging him to be allowed to cum, then begging him to stop touching me when I was told I couldn't and if I did what the consequences would be. Then all of a sudden, as he pushed 2 fingers in my ass I had no control it started, I came so hard, I gushed and squirted cum on his fist.

(this happened in January with HIM)

Second night with the Farmer parts 1 and 2

I was meant to be slipping in the apartment and getting in his bed while he was showering but it had been a long day and I wanted a shower first. I texted him and he met me at the car as I parked it.

As we went into his place he kissed me, I adore the way his arms wrap around me and his hands take hold of me. He looks at me and sees me. I kicked of my heels and started to strip and head to the shower while he made a drink.

I was so aroused almost shaking as I showered, I was aching just to get back to him kissing me.

We pass in the bedroom as I was drying myself and kiss again. I’d brought a little black slip with me and put it on and waited for him. My clit was throbbing.
He was wearing just a towel when he returned, he pulled me close and I felt his hand on my bum followed by a playful smack.

We enjoyed our drinks outside along with the last of the days sunshine, as I walked back in the apartment he had hold of the slip and removed it and took me straight to the bedroom. (we had a brief pause to make the bed apparently he had a very bad woman squirt all over it 2 days ago) (yes that was me).

He kissed me and his hands traced my body and parted my legs, he touched me everywhere and wanted him to but not where I needed it. He gentle ran his fingers over my lips but never parting them and not pressing hard enough. He wet his fingers in my mouth then traced my lips again from my ass forward. I was trying to push myself upon him but it didn’t work.

He took hold of my lips and parted them and exposed my everything. I felt like he was inspecting me which turned me on so much.

With precision he licked my clit, lapping at it gently then sucking it all up and making me squeal. After I came he stuffed his cum covered fingers in my mouth, I could taste my arousal clearly. His wet fingers were then plunged into my cunt and ass. My ass was still tender from Mondays attention but I still wanted to pleased him and I took it knowing he wasn’t going to push it too hard tonight.

I came again and he told me to lie with my head hanging off the bed. I knew this meant I was going to get my throat fucked. He has a ‘fat’ cock, it fills my mouth totally. I relax my throat and he fills it, I’m gasping for breath between strokes and as I’m concentrating on that he slapped my pussy hard, just once, it felt amazing.

We moved to the centre of the bed, I’m lay on my back legs wrapped around him and he plunges himself so deep inside my in one stroke. The mixture of the tender pussy from Mondays fun and the tightness as he hadn’t fisted me made his cock feel so immense inside me. He fucks me hard and the angle is just right my bladder was full and it made it more intense. I came as he fucked me so hard gripping around his cock.

He continued to pound me hard, in one fluid moment he withdrew stood up and shot his load over me. When he cums it is with such ferocity it is so passionate to watch. I was covered

We enjoyed wine and swapped stories, laughing and being serious, he whipped as I walked past with his shirt and I struck his ass hard with a paddle for a laugh. We stood chatting and kissing in the kitchen his arousal again became obvious.

We headed back to the bedroom this time with the restraints in hand, the blindfold and I refused to hand him the paddle, I couldn’t bring myself to pass the instrument of torture to him.

I lay on his bed, in the centre, naked and blindfolded. He kissed me and began to tie me up. In was tied fast to the bed and he tightened the straps to limit my movement. He starts to talk to me, the tone changed, I’d been naughty, I was going to have to learn to be good. It was like electricity running through my cunt, everything felt alive with every word he said. I felt something touch me, I flinched and I learned what it was as the belt smacked against my hand as I instinctively tried to move to cover myself.

He continues to talk to me telling how bad Ive been asking me if I want to be whipped. I mumble 'yes please', PARDON SPEAK UP, 'yes please' I try to say louder my voice is trembling as I invite him to whip me.

The stings then travelled up my thighs as he whipped me gently with the belt. He stopped a moment then my nipple went on fire as he flicked it in some way, I scream, he told me nobody could hear me and continued.

He asks me did I like it and I manage to say Yes, I know that is the right answer.

I was using what leverage I had to keep my legs closed, he lent in close and told me to open them, open them wide now! It is so hard to doing that voluntarily when you know you are opening yourself up so that a leather belt can sting your clit.

I don’t open them far enough and he forces me open. The belt touches me, gently this time but mentally it was stinging, I was waiting for it. A few gentle taps on my pussy lips, a sting on my nipple to distract me then CRACK, I screamed, I almost came it was so intense.

He moved he was sat between my spread legs, his legs under mine, he pushes up close and sticks his cock inside me and fucks me so hard.

I about to cum and I ask for permission. NO.

I beg to cum. NO

“if you cum I will fist your ass hard”

He knows I can’t take that tonight it’s too sore from Monday. I bite my lip and deny myself my orgasm.

He stops and he tells me I bore him, I haven’t pleased him, the leather belt is placed round my neck and tightened to like a collar, He un ties me and leads me into the living room blindfolded and forces me over the sofa and tells me to present my ass to him. The belt is tethered to the sofa or he still has hold of i, I'm not sure which, so if I pull it tightens. I have to keep still and take what is coming.

Im bent over the sofa, tied by a collar made from his belt to it, I can’t move as it tightens the collar and I have to present my ass to him... I’m shuddering and frightened of what will be next, I’m excited, exhilarated and aroused.

Pegs go on my nipples, I wasn’t expecting the sting to arrive there first. He squeezes them and pulls them making me moan load. His cock is slammed in my ass and he takes hold of me and fucks me hard.; I’m begging to be allowed to cum but denied.

He steps away and I hear him in my bag, I know he has gone to retrieve the paddle that I refused to pass him before he tied me. Gentle taps on my splayed pussy and ass began. It felt so good.

He drew his arm back and brought the paddle towards me I felt the air move and I braced myself, he stopped short and didn’t touch me. It hurt just as much as if he had. He repeats this, I know one of these times he will do it, I know one will come with a sting; it lands and sets my skin on fire where it contacted my pussy lips and ass are tingling and burning; I want more.

I feel something hard being pushed into my cunt, I’m guessing it was the wine bottle as the neck widened and opened me up, he fucked me hard with it taking me to the edge of cumming again then swapping holes and repeating the exercise.

He fucks me again taking handfuls of my hair and pounds me hard, sticking his fingers in my ass as he does so. Im shaking and trembling, needing to cum so badly and he knows it.

He unties the collar and takes hold of me, removing the blindfold as he moves in a teases me with his kisses. He leads me back into the bedroom and gently teases me, I don’t ask, I cum, he keeps playing with my clit and pushes me straight into another orgasm, now using his cock tip he wanks it hard against me making me cum and squirt, it was spraying up and showering both of us in a fine mist as he did it vigorously.
He dipped his cock in my cunt pulled me further onto him and came hard.

We lay and kissed and talked, he pulled me close knowing I needed the affection at that moment after the intensity of what had just happened, i have never experienced by tied and used like that before, it was everything I had hoped it would be and more. I think my boundaries and pushing back either further.

We enjoyed dinner together it felt so good being with him, I kind of feel like he must think I a silly little girl and not because he condescends me or anything like that, if anything he thinks so much of me, what I do and what I’ve achieved with my life so far, but because he seems so sorted and confident. Any way... back at the naughty stuff.

He says he is going to bed and I don’t know if it’s an invite or a suggestion that I leave; I grab a shower and wonder what to do, I don’t want to leave but certainly don’t want to out stay my welcome. I’m drying myself and he asks what I’m doing and join him in the bed. He cups my breast and holds me as he kisses me and squeezes my nipple, he has me aching for him to touch my sex within seconds. He doesn’t, he teases me even more than earlier, he pins me down gently but firmly and proceeds to touch my thighs and pussy lips but never enough for it feel satisfying. I’m moaning, begging and writhing, pushing my sex towards his hand hoping he will accidental touch me more.

He has me in such a state when he bolts up right, takes open my legs and smacks my pussy so hard while holding me by the throat. I wasn’t expecting it at all. I screamed; he then alternatively fucks both holes I start to cum.... he is such an amazing lover.

I’m in meeting him again on Monday and spending the whole night. We plan to explore a big fantasy of mine; it turned him on when I shared it with him and he plans to make it happen for me... watch this space

The 2nd night with the farmer

I was meant to be slipping in the apartment and getting in his bed while he was showering but it had been a long day and I wanted a shower first. I texted him and he met me at the car as I parked it.

As we went into his place he kissed me, I adore the way his arms wrap around me and his hands take hold of me. He looks at me and sees me. I kicked of my heels and started to strip and head to the shower while he made a drink.

I was so aroused almost shaking as I showered, I was aching just to get back to him kissing me.

We pass in the bedroom as I was drying myself and kiss again. I’d brought a little black slip with me and put it on and waited for him. My clit was throbbing.
He was wearing just a towel when he returned, he pulled me close and I felt his hand on my bum followed by a playful smack.

We enjoyed our drinks outside along with the last of the days sunshine, as I walked back in the apartment he had hold of the slip and removed it and took me straight to the bedroom. (we had a brief pause to make the bed apparently he had a very bad woman squirt all over it 2 days ago) (yes that was me).

He kissed me and his hands traced my body and parted my legs, he touched me everywhere and wanted him to but not where I needed it. He gentle ran his fingers over my lips but never parting them and not pressing hard enough. He wet his fingers in my mouth then traced my lips again from my ass forward. I was trying to push myself upon him but it didn’t work.

He took hold of my lips and parted them and exposed my everything. I felt like he was inspecting me which turned me on so much.

With precision he licked my clit, lapping at it gently then sucking it all up and making me squeal. After I came he stuffed his cum covered fingers in my mouth, I could taste my arousal clearly. His wet fingers were then plunged into my cunt and ass. My ass was still tender from Mondays attention but I still wanted to pleased him and I took it knowing he wasn’t going to push it too hard tonight.

I came again and he told me to lie with my head hanging off the bed. I knew this meant I was going to get my throat fucked. He has a ‘fat’ cock, it fills my mouth totally. I relax my throat and he fills it, I’m gasping for breath between strokes and as I’m concentrating on that he slapped my pussy hard, just once, it felt amazing.

We moved to the centre of the bed, I’m lay on my back legs wrapped around him and he plunges himself so deep inside my in one stroke. The mixture of the tender pussy from Mondays fun and the tightness as he hadn’t fisted me made his cock feel so immense inside me. He fucks me hard and the angle is just right my bladder was full and it made it more intense. I came as he fucked me so hard gripping around his cock.

He continued to pound me hard, in one fluid moment he withdrew stood up and shot his load over me. When he cums it is with such ferocity it is so passionate to watch. I was covered

We enjoyed wine and swapped stories, laughing and being serious, he whipped as I walked past with his shirt and I struck his ass hard with a paddle for a laugh. We stood chatting and kissing in the kitchen his arousal again became obvious.

We headed back to the bedroom this time with the restraints in hand, the blindfold and I refused to hand him the paddle, I couldn’t bring myself to pass the instrument of torture to him.

I lay on his bed, in the centre, naked and blindfolded. He kissed me and began to tie me up. In was tied fast to the bed and he tightened the straps to limit my movement. He starts to talk to me, the tone changed, I’d been naughty, I was going to have to learn to be good. It was like electricity running through my cunt, everything felt alive with every word he said. I felt something touch me, I flinched and I learned what it was as the belt smacked against my hand as I instinctively tried to move to cover myself.

He continues to talk to me telling how bad Ive been asking me if I want to be whipped. I mumble 'yes please', PARDON SPEAK UP, 'yes please' I try to say lounder my voice is trembling as I invite him to whip me.

The stings then travelled up my thighs as he whipped me gently with the belt. He stopped a moment then my nipple went on fire as he flicked it in some way, I scream, he told me nobody could hear me and continued.

He askes me did I like it and I manage to say Yes, I know that is the right answer.

I was using what leverage I had to keep my legs closed, he leant in close and told me to open them, open them wide now! It is so hard to doing that voluntarily when you know you are opening yourself up so that a leather belt can sting your clit.

I don’t open them far enough and he forces me open. The belt touches me, gently this time but mentally it was stinging, I was waiting for it. A few gentle taps on my pussy lips, a sting on my nipple to distract me then CRACK, I screamed, I almost came it was so intense.

He moved he was sat between my spread legs, his legs under mine, he pushes up close and sticks his cock inside me and fucks me so hard.

I about to cum and I ask for permission. NO.

I beg to cum. NO

“if you cum I will fist your ass hard”

He knows I can’t take that tonight it’s too sore from Monday. I bite my lip and deny myself my orgasm.

He stops and he tells me I bore him, I haven’t pleased him, the leather belt is placed round my neck and tightened to like a collar, He un ties me and leads me into the living room blindfolded and forces me over the sofa and tells me to present my ass to him. The belt is tethered to the sofa or he still has hold of i, im not sure which, so if I pull it tightens. I have to keep still and take what is coming.

Part 2 tomorrow

Therapy session 5 - pre holiday

Prior to going away I popped to see the therapist, I needed some stress relief. As ever we took some pics and I thought this time Id let the pictures do most of the talking.

He was pleased to see my sexy underwear he looked at me approvingly and kissed me as his hands explored me. He took charge straight away and slipped on the blindfold, he took some pictures and he proceeded to tie me up.

Once I was securely tied to the bed, blindfolded and had ear plugs in, he teased me using his mouth, fingers, other items I didnt even know what they were but the felt great against my body. Then the first sting came, a peg on my nipple, then another, the another...



I felt an unusual and intense feeling on my other nipple at the time I couldnt work out what it was, the nipple suction cups really to feel like someone is sucking you so hard and consistantly. I was getting so wet and at this stage and he hadnt even touched my pussy he was enjoying teasing me, making me wait.



I then felt his warm tongue against my lips and he went to town and licked me until I came over him I was bucking and grinding on his face as I came.

He then gently spanked my soaking wet pussy a few times and he stepped back and teased me again for a while.

Then another sting, this time my pussy lips. It felt so intense almost too painful but everything I wanted as well. I needed to feel it.



I was at my upper limited but knew I was in safe hands and relaxed and enjoyed the ride, he held my engorged clit in his fingers and I knew what was going to happen, he waited knowing the anticipation would be almost more than the act its self.



He pegged it and then licked the tip of my clit that was exposed until I came. It felt amazing. He then removed the pegs and forced his hand deep inside my dripping wet cunt and fisted me until an squirted over him, he lapped it up and made me cum more.


It was an amazing session as ever.

Dutch (part 6) The finale!

I woke up at 6am and slipped off to the shower and returned to by his side, snuggled into him and woke him with kisses. As he lay sleepy I place the blindfold on him and kissed him some more. He became hard instantly.


I placed the wrist restraints on him so his arms were trapped by his side. I sat back a moment knowing not touching him would feel more intense than touching him.

My tongue then darted over the tip of his beautiful cock tasting his excitement. I wouldn't give him any more though I wanted him to ache for me to touch him. I moved to his balls and licked and sucked them, my hand tracing between his thighs rubbing from his balls to his ass. He starts to moan and I stop. I step away. I kiss him then don't, hovering close so he knows I'm there.


I grab some ice from the bucket and make him shudder as I allow it to melt and drip onto him, tiny droplets over his body and tip of his cock of ice water.

I sit back and do nothing. His expression says it all; the wait for the next touch is making him ache.

I grabbed the lubricant and smothered his cock and balls in it. Again my hands disappear between his thighs this time pressing harder. I pour water from a glass over his cock slowly at first then more making his cock and balls so pliable as I wank him hard for a moment.

A naughty thought runs through my mind. I pick up the empty glass and place it on his cock, it was a good fit, and I wanted him to feel touched but frustrated by it not being enough. I placed lube around it and used the glass to slowly wank him, I was tempted to sit on it but unsure of want his reaction would have been.


I grabbed my vibrator and teased his body then placing it pressed against his ass, not enough to give any satisfaction but enough to make him want it.






I could tell by his movements and sounds he was so ready to cum, I took off the glass and deep throated him, I pulled of his blindfold just as he was about to cum and let him watch as he shot all over my face.


I untied him and returned to the pillow and held him; kissing his forehead as he lay in my arms.

We dozed for moments and woke kissing each other again, his hand slid towards my clit and he urged me to turn around to spoon. He slipped his thumb in my ass and a finger in my cunt and slowly massaged both holes. It didn't take long to have me cuming again, he took tight hold of me, I was in a head lock, his arm firmly around me, his legs held me so firm, I knew he was going to force me to keep cumming no matter what.

I came over and over, eventually his grip turned to an affectionate cuddle he kissed me so gently on my neck and back as I lay quivering in his arms. I was still aching for something deep inside me and asked him to push the vibrator deep in me. As he did he pushed his thigh between mine and I ground down on it until I came. We drifted off to sleep again in a tangled mess, the vibrator was still inside me, I woke up in the throes of another orgasm and he squeezed my breasts and nipples hard pushing me over the edge. I turned towards him and remounted his leg and he kissed me so passionately. He kept me on the edge a few moments then the most powerful orgasm came over me. I felt the wetness trickle out of me as I came, that moment in his arms was just perfect, I was an emotional wreck from cumming so much I just lay there in tatters but felt so safe and wanted by him at the moment I didn't care.

That was my last moment naked with him, my last orgasm. We had breakfast and left for the airport but at every moment and opportunity we touched or held each other.

At the airport he was such a gent, he got me in the business class queue with him and he was taking me to the lounge when a proper little jobs worthy spotted he was at the wrong departures gate and refuse him in. Our last few moments we had planned were now dashed. We had to say good bye in the crowds at the passport desks. He kissed me and held me how I needed it. I didn't want to part; I stepped back and ached for him, already missing him. He kissed me again and I joined the queue, as I disappeared into the crowd he stood by the barrier, I had to kiss him again. I'm sure everyone around us thought it was madness or romantic... it was both for me. I was trying not to show him that my eyes were filling up though, it had been so perfect, he was so perfectly mine for those few days and it was ending. He kept looking back at me as he hurried to his gate. Tears trailed down my face but I didn't care he was too far away to see and I couldn't stop them now I was alone. I was hoping he was missing me as much. I didn’t want to be alone in that as well.


This weekend was so special,whilst I know that our paths are different for now and that the weekend was a fantastic snapshot of what we can achieve with so many other possibiliteis to explore together. I hope that I get to do it again and soon, to see what other possibilities we have. Dutch is someone I now crave to be near and is someone that I think I could feel happy with on so many levels and the enjoyment is going to be reaching those levels together, I can only hope he feels the same way wherever and whenever we meet again which can not come soon enough.

Friday evening - Dutch style x (part 2)

Holland where playing Brazil, it was 32 degrees, town was buzzing with football supporters which made finding somewhere for our ‘sun downers’ (officially have adopted this term from Dutch) a challenge, we found a small pub off the main square and drank several (3) pints of Holland’s finest draft.

We talked and laughed, watched the world go by, Holland were winning so the pace was increasing in the square. A few moments after the final whistle blew fire engines joined the crowds to celebrate hosing the hot supporters down in the water spray. We headed off to dinner and found Gauchos , an Argentinean steak house.

We ate, drank and flirted, resolving after a litre of red wine to head back to the hotel. I love to listen to him talk, whilst he has a local accent of where we both live his is punctuated with scandic tones and words.

We wandered back to the hotel hand in hand, stopping to drink and find directions we had tact our way to the restaurant and were trying to find a more direct route back.

We enjoyed a couple of cheeky drinks at the bar then head back to the sanctuary of the bedroom. I disappeared to the bathroom and shower and put on something far more inappropriate. It was a black see through baby doll, ties or should I say unties at the cleavage, matching panties and silk stockings with 5” luxurious lace tops. Finished with my current favourite shoes.. you know the black patent ones.

The great thing is even with those heels on he was still taller. He took hold of me and kissed me deep and passionately.

The panties didn’t last long, he slid them down and pushed himself against me. He slammed his hips hard on to my wetness, pinning my arms down and kissing me with such passion. He began to bite, nibble and tease me. I was struggling to free myself, not wanting to win but enjoying the fight.

Still holding my wrists and holding my legs apart Dutch disappeared between my thighs, teasing licks to start with. His tongue felt amazing, it dint take long with the way he was licking me to have me at a peak, the way he lick from my hole and over my clit, the way he alternated and suckled my clit was mind blowing.

As my first wave of the evenings orgasm started over me he took tight a hold of me, making sure I couldn’t pull away, my clit went so sensitive and I was writhing and bucking against his attentions, he was relentless, forcing me to cum again and again. When he sensed it was getting to much he slowed, held me, then took me there again. I officially love his oral.

A little later I took the opportunity to repay the compliment and gave Dutch a teasing blow job, taking my time, giving him pay back. I made him ache and urge me to take him. I teased him until he was oozing precum and his balls twitched as I licked and took them in my mouth, sucking them gentle.

I took him deep in my throat and moved up and down the full shaft, as he came I push down and he shot straight into my throat.

He put the blind fold on me and continued to tease me, for over an hour he had me in a spin, cumming and aching for him. He hadn’t been inside my pussy though, he knew he was driving me wild, I was begging him to enter me, he told me no, I begged him to kiss me kiss me, he was hovering close, I could sense him there, feeling his breath so I move to him and he pulls away. I was quivering, shuddering at ever touch, every inch of me felts so alive and sensitive. He lay beside me and moved to spoon me. I melt into his arms he felt so affectionate, then his fingers disappeared under the covers again. Running slowly along my bum, parting my cheeks and easing the tip of his cock into my ass. Once the head was in he pushed in hard, taking my breath away he paused as I accommodated him then fucked my ass hard until he came deep inside me. He pulled out and replaced his cock with his fingers, 1 .. then 2... 4.... he asks “do i want his thumb” he doesn’t wait for my verbal reply. As he works me open and pushes his hand deep into my ass I start to cum, at first I can’t take all of him it’s too much, I’m at my limit, he waits until I’m in the throws of cumming and pushed in so deep..I start to gush everywhere.

I fell asleep in the arms of Dutch, feeling so content and happy... excluding the lack of in pussy action, but he wanted me hungry and aroused, that I was.

More scheduled to post at midnight GMT ;D
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For those who are interested in the non sexual side of me I have posted on my other blog the outside the bedroom take on the weekend http://marriednoparole.blogspot.com/

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Danger may explode without any warning

Day 17 of abstaining. Seriously getting to be too much, but I'm also loving the feeling. Knowing the reward that awaits me for when he touches me.

He has been teasing from a distance, lots of naughty flirty texts, the odd IM conversation where he gave me teasing instructions which I followed to the letter.

Everything is sexual, everyone is suitable but no-one is right. I meet him on Friday at the airport. I meet the man I want so much, its been so long since I wanted to be with someone so much. The very thought of him makes me ache to be touched. I want to held and kissed by him as much as I want to be debauched and kinky with him.

I'm so aroused Ive woke up fingering myself a few times this week, I woke up almost cumming from an erotic dream another night. At this point even turbulence on the aircraft on my way over might set me off. I feel that when he kisses me I may just explode but I don't want that, I want all this wait all this teasing to explode at the right moment. I want it to be when he is tasting me or penetrating me. I need him to be covered in my orgasm and feel me cum for him.

I want to be covered in his orgasm too. He has also abstained so our first few moments together I expect will be frantic and intense, a perfect way to start the weekend.

Some of the thoughts that have consumed me this week...

I'm pushing the glass butt plug inside me and then spooning me, fucking me long, hard and deep, pushing the butt plug in as he moves against me holding my breast and throat.

• Tying him up, blind folding him and sneaking a lady friend in the room to helping me tease him till he explodes.


• Totally giving myself to him, letting him tie me, blindfold me and then affectionately abuse me. Using my speculum on me, fisting me, anything to make me feel so full and stretched.


• Kissing, so much kissing must be done. I have such a thirst for him to kiss me at the moment, its like drinking from an empty cup every time I think of his kisses.


• Kneeling before him and giving him a long slow teasing blow job. taking him to the edge and holding back until he cant no more.


• Being woke up by him penetrating me. Fingers and cock, I need everything he can give me.


• spooning! just simply spooning, lying there talking, laughing, touching, being me with him, feeling wanted for being me.

Picture courtesy of the sexy Nolens Volens! nice to see he thought of me on his holiday... thanks NV

stood up, abstaining and horny as hell now ive read this from the therapist!

The picnic never happened :-(

I got a call from him at the hospital on the morning, a family member took ill I shant discuss on here and we ended up speaking loads on the phone and texting while he waited news. He wants to meet up again soon but to spend some quality time, he flies back to Stockholme tomorrow so he has offered to fly me to Amsterdam, the worlds sex capital, to spend a weekend together giggling and getting naughty.

So ....I hadnt cum, I was saving myself for the picnic... I was so horny, I had the ben wa balls in, we were talking and I was touching myself but didnt allow myself to cum. I saw the therapist for a coffee and I didnt let him let me cum. I had a shower and took myself to the edge several times and as I was about to allow myself too the bathroom door flew open and a child ran in shouting mummy I got new stickers.... wow thats great!!!!!!!!

So Im climbing the walls but going to abstain until next week. BUT emails like this aint helping!!!!!!!

THE EMAIL
You arrive dressed in a white blouse black skirt heels and hold ups. Straight up stairs without a word and drop down your bags. You are blindfolded and your ear plugs are put in, you stand still waiting. you feel the blouse being undone and slipped off your shoulders then the skirt being unzipped and it falls to the floor you are led forward a few paces and step out of it. You are standing blindfolded with ear plugs in with only bra panties and heels on with some beautiful holds up showing off the beauty of your long legs. you feel vulnerable yet calm as you know you are going to enjoy what ever it is that is coming.

A hand traces its way around your body and stops at the top of your back and bends you over so you are at an angle of 45 degrees and you can feel your bra being unclasped and removed at the same time you then feel restraints being put on both your wrists and ankles and the hand retracing its way round your body until you suddenly feel a sharp sensation as your left nipples is enclosed in a vice like grip what it is you don't know but it feels wonderful and you shudder. Still at an angel and breathing heavily you feel something soft being wrapped around your head it seems to be engulfing your whole head but surprisingly you can still breathe properly once you have calmed down and realised there is no danger of suffocating, your senses are changes as your faint hearing and slight sensation of light are obliterated your only defence now is your heightened sense of touch and the goose bumps on your whole body seem alive.
As the final strips of what ever it is are placed around your neck you shudder as they are pulled tight then released but left there you imagine ready to be pulled on again at any time.
Your position is moved to the left and you can now feel your breasts being manipulated as if being strapped together but not the same, the feel of the silk rope binding them feels so good you remember this from a previous session and you can feel the damp between your legs increase as the sensations sweeping your body increase with the growing anticipation. the clamp or whatever it was is removed from your left nipple and the shock wave causes you to let out a cry but it is so muffled by what ever is covering your mouth, you gasp for air and again the sensation of suffocation returns but quickly subsides.

With your breasts feeling like they are tightly bound you stand up straight and are led to the bed end which you can feel against your legs you are made to bend over again and suddenly you are crying out in pain as your bottom cheeks are on fire you can not hear anything but sense a rush of wind against your skin then you feel the slap of what you imagine to be leather against your cheeks it feels so good. You can feel the gusset of your panties is now soaking as the juices pour from your excited and willing cunt, it longs to be touched and probed now, but nothing when will it come? as you so want to cum you know that one touch on your throbbing clit will send you over the edge but nothing you are shaking with wave after wave of sensations that seem so heightened your body feels like it is a raw nerve and yet you know there is so much more to come.

You feel yourself being moved onto the bed in a all fours position your arms apart and your legs apart and it is then that you feel for the first time that day your panties being moved to one side and your tender cunt lips being parted and you can feel warm breath on your clit , oh no here it cums the feeling of the tongue darting in and out against your clit and then the fingers probing your cunt are to much and you feel the first wave of orgasm sweep over you, have you gushed on their face will they mind will you be punished you wait and as if by answer the tongue is probing again only this time the shock returns to your nipples and you can then feel a finger probing your anal hole god how much do you want to feel it full up there today you have hoped but never dared think it would happen today but you know that all you want is a fist up your cunt and in your arse as you scream in silence to yet another orgasm. still on all fours you can now feel your breasts being pulled down hard as if trying to pull them off it feels so good and yet so wrong once again your arse cheeks are on fire and your neck seems to be getting tighter yes its that feeling again and as suddenly as you realise what it is it has stopped again and your rising panic subsides.

Only now do you get a chance to relax as you are moved onto your back, but just as quickly the relaxation feeling goes as your arms are wrenched upwards and spread apart as are your legs spread wide and tied in place before the last leg is tied you feel your soaking panties being taken off you can only imagine how wet they are and what he is going to do with them. What is to become of me now my body is on fire as i get a strange smell permeate my mask can it be the smell of burnt matches. Oh my God what is next your body arches in anticipation and your cunt is on fire with desire and is dripping juice all over the bed you can feel it running between your cheeks you are so wet and you know you have only just started the session. What is next...............
to be continued.


DAMN THAT IS SO UNFAIR!!!!!!!

Sensory deprivation: What do you enjoy most about it or Why do you like it? What have you done in that type of play?

Sensory deprivation is such an intense experience and I must add I can only do it with a trusted lover as with any sort of bondage. Just having a blindfold on is amazing, not knowing where the next touch is coming or what it is, listening to every sound to get a clue.. the Velcro being pulled apart knowing the restraints are about to be applied, the soft humming of a vibrator as it is turned on and wondering where it will be placed. Feeling the warm breath of you lover as he hovers over you ready to kiss you but making you wait mmmmmmm. Every touch is magnified, you feel everything so much more. But take away your hearing as well. Not knowing what is to happen, you mind becomes a fertile and creative place. Tied up in that state anything could happen. Every touch is electric. The therapist is always amazed at my bodies reaction to every touch when in this state. The goose bumps, the erect hard nipples, the juices flowing from me.

Last night I met the therapist for a 'coffee' and he blindfolded me and put in the ear plugs. tied my wrists together with a belt and then teased me for an hour. It was so good, he used my speculum to open me up while he licked at my swollen clit then and fingered my ass. he moved away and the thing about sensory deprivation that not being touch is as intense as being touched. the next thing i felt was a sting on my left nipple as he clamped it, as I got my breath back he applied another then fisted my furiously until I gush all over the place.

Thanks for the question, now aching and wet sat at work. I'm alone and have 20 mins before next meeting... fresh batteries and a little porn now required x

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Therapy session #3

I turned up a few minutes late and greeted by my therapist, we chatted briefly over coffee about my week and decided to talk while taking pictures. This weeks HNT has a theme as its 5 tomorrow. We needed to replicate my first submission, mine was only a few months ago but it was fun redoing the picture. I lay on the bed, still partially clothed as he took the pictures. I was getting aroused as he positioned me and took the shots.

When he finished he joined me on the bed and kissed me, trailing his fingers over me. Suddenly he got up and told me to undress. I took everything off except my panties and heels and returned to the bed. He placed the blind fold on and put ear plugs in. Until you have experienced this you will never understand the power of sensory deprivation. Suddenly every touch is amplified. I cant hear him move around the room. Each touch is like static electricity to me. I dont know what he is going to do. Something soft is trailed over me then a sharp sting on my mound. it was the paddle. it trailed over me again so gently but i was waiting for the next sting. He teased me with his breath over me, knowing i wanted kisses.

I was aching for his hands between my thighs, he knew and pleased me. He massaged my clit until I came, the first of many.

He moved away, his next touch was his hands holding my ankle, the silk rope felt so wonderful as he kissed and nibbled at my ankles while tying me. He hogtied me ensure I was able to part my thighs enough for him to access me.



He slipped his fingers inside me, opening me up, pushing harder each time. I was so wet his hand entered my forming a fist inside. fingers were pressing against my g spot and when in a few minutes i started cuming. As the juices flowed out of me his other fingers rubbed my clit. I seemed to be in a constant state of cuming.

He stopped a moment and a light sting on my bottom was enjoyed and again... gentle spanking me. a sharp sting on my nipples came a shock as a peg was attached, then pegs were placed on my pussy lips, 4 i think, I was dizzy not knowing where he was and what was coming next. He pushed open my legs and held my clit in his mouth, sucking it and licking it, making it swell and throb, then came another peg right on my clit. It took my breath away, it felt like my body was plug into the mains. he untied my ankles and removed the peg and began licking me to another peak.


This time his fingers were exploring both holes. i felt some cold enter me, then ebb away, my body heat took it quickly. he then stepped away not knowing where he was. The next touch was him opening my mouth and stuffing his cock in. I was hungry for and sucked hard. he held my head and fucked my mouth until i could take no more. I lay back on the bed catching my breath, the mystery of what had been cold was then solved... today's chocolate, half melted and covered in my cum, he smeared the melted remains over my face and then kissed me.

His hands parted my thighs again and explored both holes each time pushing more in and deeper. He licked at my clit and distracted me from his hands forcing their way into me. I began to cum again this time so hard, i was writhing in ecstasy as he pushed both hands inside finally. I was so full. I kept cuming, my hole body was shaking and trembling.

He removed himself and stepped away. I was then on all fours with him fisting my cunt so hard and deep, I was gushing down my legs as he filled me.

I collapsed onto the bed in a quivering mess..my next touch was to be his cum jetted over my face.

He untied me and held me as lay trembling still. He took me to the shower and held me as he washed me, telling it had been the most intense and wonderful sex session he had ever enjoyed.

We sat sipping coffee for a while after reviewing the pictures, talking of the next time, discussing a fantasy of mine and agreeing that we shall continue without penetration.

Would you ever fuck a stranger?

yes*, **, ***

subject to many clauses though!

1) general attractiveness and dont dont just mean looks. Things like smell, how they are dressed etc. Also hieght is a big thing for me. I'm so tall I struggle with being with a man shorter. I feel uncomfortable and it often turns me off.

2) Being safe, i've been on the wrong side of sex with a stranger and having been raped I know clearly the difference. Silly really as I love to play rape with my partner it really turns me on. I won't try to work out the detail of that as I might send myself mad!

3)I was ready for it, I like to be ready for sex, fresh as a daisy and dressed to kill.

I have had an encounter with a sort of stranger. We had spoken on-line I had seen a photo but never met. He text to say he was free, he booked a room, I lay on the bed with a blindfold on and I never did see him. He enetered the room and for 2 hours pleasured me... never penetrated me though (as per my request)it was so arousing. I have a fantasy like this that involves a group of males and females doing this. Not knowing who is touching me and what the next touch is to be.

Aroused now!! thanks for the question xx

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Can't sleep too aroused and he is now fast asleep. I'm not the best sleeper in the world but lay next to my lover, naked, skin to skin, his hardness resting against me is never going to help.

I got to the apartment at 3ish, I didn't have long to prepare for him he called to say he was going to be early. I ran round getting ready opening wine applying lipstick and adoring the underwear, I was wearing black stockings with teal feathered detail on the tops (Falke for those stocking guru's out there) stilettos, teal bra and a black slip. I was dripping wet with anticipation when he arrived. He set his bag down, stripped as he kissed me and then immediately penetrated me. It felt so good to feel him inside me again. We fucked like animals for about an hour only stopping as he took of my stockings and heels and placed them on himself, replaced fresh ones on me and then as he came deep inside me he held me so tight.

Within minutes he was hard again but this time he withdrew and began to gently tease me, he knew I was aching for him to fist me and I could see from the glint in his eyes I was going to have to beg. so I did, repeatedly, he then placed his clenched fist at my entrance and pushed gently. Making me take it all at once. I was so wet his fist slipped inside me and within minutes I was cumming so hard. He made me finger my ass as he did it, taking hold of my wrist and forcing more fingers inside me.

As I lay there smiling he disappeared for a moment and returned with a gift... he was giggling and saying he hoped it fitted me... now he normally brings me shoes so i was hopeful... but instead a gift of Pom juice... guess where it ended up! wow... it felt amazing, almost too big to take but so gratifying as I got past each notch. Once inside me he thoroughly abused my clit making me hold myself open for him even though I was so sensitive.



Tired and smiling we retired to the lounge and enjoyed some wine and cheese and talked non stop for hours, laughing and holding each other, it felt so good to be held.

We headed back to bed and made love for hours, spooning! my fav position... he kept teasing my ass with his cock tip but not letting me have it, I knew I was going to have to wait... I knew i was going to be given an ass full of cum for work.

Sure enough this morning I was woken by his lubricated fingers pushing into me swiftly followed by his cock. He slipped the bullet vibe on my clit, held both my wrists in one of his big hands and pinched my nipples with the other so hard it took my breath away. He was telling me how tonight he will be binding my hands and feet together, blindfolding me and abusing my holes all night.... He told me I wasn't allowed to cum until he did, it was so hard not to, eventually I couldn't hold back any longer and as I begged him to let me he pushed his hand deep in my cunt pushing my over the edge. My orgasm triggered his and he filled my ass with cream making me instantly cum again.


I'm now sat in bed awaiting his arrival, ready to give myself to him

a filthy but wonderful gentleman

I was drunk and online replying to the hundreds of messages I got on the swing site, I remember I had posted my status as 'invisible'. He messaged me ... it read, I can see you and you look beautiful. It made me smile and replied kindly suggesting he messaged me tomorrow not through the fog of drink as he was unlikely to get much sense out of me. We struck up a great friendship talking. My relationship with M was coming to an end and he was a great ear and a sound mind to be near, plus I loved hearing his antics. he was 50ish, but looked only 40, a fit and well cared for body, coupled with the most piercing green eyes and a captivating smile. He was a sex addict and soooo kinky. The day M dumped me I called him as I needed a friend, he told me to go pack and get on the next train to Edinburgh and he would meet me at Harvey Nicks for cocktails and dinner.

I did! I was sat on the bar stool sipping a cocktail when he arrived. He looked even more sexy and stunning in person. We enjoyed a few cocktails laughing and talking, he held my hand and circled the skin on my thigh as we chatted. He had made dinner so we head back to his and continued what was the most delightful evening so far. I had been fearful in one respect as he seemed to be a very sexual and extremely kinky person, but he had such a way about him I felt at ease. I'm a great believer in arousal starting in your mind before it can happen physically, its rare I can come from just a physical act, I need the mind to be turned on as well... he did this so well. While he was preparing a starter he started to arouse me, moving behind me and kissing my neck and pushing himself against me gently. It was such a tonic from the devastation I had felt in the morning, no pressure, just a frivolous moment for me, with nothing but respect wanted in return.

He told me to go to the bedroom and get myself comfortable... I didn't take another asking, I went to the room and got undress and replaced the clothes with a corset, french knicks, stockings and heels then sat on the bed sipping my wine. He entered some minutes later dress in a latex body suit holding a blindfold.

I had never been with anyone in latex before and it tickled me at first but within minutes I could see the attraction. He was so hard and I must add so well hung, I have never seen or enjoyed such a large cock in my life! He got my on all fours and put on his latex gloves and immediately fisted me telling my I needed to cum before dinner. I gushed and squirted over him twice before he stopped and replaced his fist with his cock. He held my hair while he fucked me hard from behind, fingering my ass as he did it.

After dinner he lead me back to the bedroom and tied me to the bed and gagged me, placed a blindfold on me and whispered he was going to get another man to come in and fuck me. I had told him this had been a fantasy ages ago. I was so aroused yet frightened, but I was confident I was in safe hands. He pleasured me for hours telling me what the stranger was going to do to me when he got there. How he will hold me open and guide him in my holes and help in fuck me and fill me up.

It was light outside when he took the blindfold back off and he lead me to the bathroom where he had ran a bath for me. He bathed me and kissed me all over then rubbed cream into my tender ass cheeks where he had spanked me. We slept for an hour before I was awoken by him entering me more tenderly and we 'made love' for over an hour, it was wonderful end to a very passionate night.

I met with him on a few other occasions, pushing a few boundaries each time. The last time I met him last year I indulged his fetish for latex and wore a latex corset, long gloves and a mask. I gave myself to him and allowed him to take his pleasure and again he gave so much back. He bought an inflatable dildo for me to try which was a fun treat along with a spreader bar. He put the dildo in my ass and made me pump it up until I begged to stop then fucked me so beautifully talking filthy all the time making me cum so much.

I found an email I sent him as I returned on the train...

In the absence of a verification at this point I want to say I had an amazing evening. You are exceptional as a host, a cook and as a lover. Its important for me to be mentally aroused as well as physically and you achieved this and more. I look forward to a future visit subject to you not leaving the country or joining a monastery due to me abusing you so much last night. I know we took a view that last night was getting to know each other so I could trust you and relax more the next time... I think we achieved that and much more and the mind boggles at how we could have a more intense experience but I'm sure we will have a good try!! Before we met whilst I was very attracted to you I did have a concern that you would be and want too much, I think I mentioned I felt you would be a step further on my journey but now I think I need to come to accept that I am a dirty horny woman with an insatiable appetite and there aren't many men that can have me for breakfast! Take care, rest well and I look forward to the next time we kiss.


his reply...

Indeed, I shall reply later when I have recovered a little more but in short your a filthy deep-throating, fist-fuck loving cock slut, that you are. How nice it is to be able to use these words with affection!

xxx

filling in the gaps.... hot wax

early last year...I arrived in a submissive manner, nipples chained, but plug in. As i walked through the door I was met by a kiss. He reached down and checked to see I'd done as instructed. He swiftly cuffed my wrists and bend me over the back of the sofa and plundged into me.

Within minutes he had me on the verge of cuming. He had such a way with me, since meeting M I was discovering myself or he was discovering me. I was little older than him and lot more mature, but as for sexual experience he was well ahead.

Each time we met we pushed more boundaries, he never had to ask he seemed to know how far to push me and like wise for him as I had devloped a taste for spanking him.

This night when I was bent over, first time id trusted him to blindfold me and tie me. He had the tip of him cock resting in my ass and spanking me, making me beg for it.

He then pulled away and trickled ice water over my ass. It made me scream, taking my breath away, I so wasnt expecting it. Then it hit, the warm loving sting of wax as it was poured over my ass. He pushed inside just as the wax began to cool and fucked me so hard while pulling my hair, my cum was litterally running down my legs.

restrained and not allowed to cum

Got back from the office early especially to prepare myself for him. Needed to ensure I had enough time to shower, shave pussy smooth and lace myself into a corset put the stockings and heels on. I lay on the sofa ready for him, he text to say he was on his way so I slipped the blind fold on and cuffed myself. I thought i'd set the mood!

He got the message loud and clear, I heard his intake of breath as he saw me, I could feel his smile of approval then I felt the first spank land on my ass.

He discovered the bullet vibe I had between my lips as he trailed his fingers over my smoothness. He ordered me to go to the bedroom and told me I wasn't allowed to cum.... I felt the revenge about to start from teasing him so much last night.

He took the cuffs off for a moment and as he did I took the opportunity to touch myself, knowing I wouldn't be able to for hours, he grabbed my wrists and pinned them down, the restraints went on this time my hands were behind my back, I was helpless and vunerable.

I was so wet his fist went inside without any lube I needed to cum but knew I had to hold it for now, I'd have to earn it.

For the next 2 hours his actions contradicted his words, telling me I couldn't, mustn't and better not cum, but he was doing everything in his power to make me. He alternated from licking me till I was at the edge, fisting me then using the bullet on my clit. It was like I was wired to the mains. Each time I was at the edge I was begging him to be allowed to cum, then begging him to stop touching me when I was told I couldn't and if I did what the consiquences would be. Then all of a sudden, as he pushed 2 fingers in my ass I had no control it started, I came so hard, I gushed and squirted cum on his fist.