Sorry for the prolonged absence, major (positive) stuff has been happening in my family life that needed my full attention. Hopefully things have settled down and I should be back blogging regular again.
Now for the sad news… YSL is moving away so time together is going to be a precious commodity. When I first read the email from him I felt physically sick, it was like a blow to the stomach. I knew there was a chance of it happening but I was always hopeful it wouldn't. 5 hours of driving will be separating us and his spare time will be weekends which aren't spare for me. It looks like hotels at the half way point are about to be put to the test.
I feel that we are strong enough to adapt and embrace the change in our circumstances but it stills weighs heavy in my heart to have him so far away. Over the last 3 years he has become my best friend and has been such a great support in life through some of the most challenging of times. The biggest thing we are going to have to do is start speaking on the phone! I can still count on one hand how many times we have done this but with the distance I think Facetime is going to become a regular staple to maintain sanity! Never been one for phone sex but I can see this being an option if I’m climbing the walls sexually.
It’s been so long since I really felt the need to masturbate alone, YSL has sated my need and when arousal has a hold of me its normally because I’m with or about to meet with him. The biggest challenge will be my using sex as a stress relief. Perhaps I need to take up a new hobby, suggestion on a postcard please!
Next weekend though we are heading to a BBW party and hoping to have a wild night together before our period of absence begins. It certainly be a noteworthy night as we are returning to our favourite club in the country and the last time I was there I was lucky enough to enjoy a small queue of fine BBC and I would love to do that again. This time I want to totally go for it as I got a tad overwhelmed and fled to the showers after 3 or 4 guys the last time, I regretted my hasty retreat although that’s easy to say with hindsight, it was right to do it at the time.
We have already started to plan for another Cap D’Agde visit for late summer as well which gives us both a date in the diary to be excited and plan for, I suppose I even find it reassuring to have such a trip planned. Whilst it doesn't guarantee anything it makes me feel that YSL is wanting me as much as I do him, silly girl mentality I’m sure but it’s a little bit of reassurance I need right now.