Sinful Sunday - The stages of grief

It's been the toughest few days of my life, I've never lost anyone close before, the ache inside me is unbearable.

The first night, while we waited for the coroner, i made my excuses and escaped to YSL's he held me so close as I sobbed so hard I thought I'd never stop the pain. I needed the time away before facing the children.

Yesterday I escaped again, it's hard to keep up pretences so you don't upset the children at home. I cried some more and begged YSL to hold me naked, i needed the closeness and intimacy. I begged some more "I don't want to take advantage nor do I want to disappoint" was YSL's reply.

"take advantage please, anything less will disappoint" was my retort.

He made love to me and had me in a state, on the verge of tears but for good reason as I came so hard.

Today he took me to bed, immediate clear intension of raw sex, he disappeared under the covers and licked me into a frenzy, his mouth locked around my clit as he fingered then fisted my cunt until I was clawing at the bedding cumming so much, more than I've ever know before, the grief and relief mixed together making each climax so rich. He slipped on a cock ring to ensure his cock could be no harder and pulled me so close in spoons position, fucking hard yet loving, deep and passionate. The moment YSL spilled inside me was electric, I could feel his warm fill me.

After coffee, choc's and masturbating me until I was a shaking mess he spanked my cunt hard until I came once more, his cock was hard again for me and I masturbated him until I milked his cum out and covered my tummy.

It's at times like these you realise your true friends and who deeply cares for you. This week YSL has been my rock, I'm so grateful to have him in my life.

TMI - take me to bed

Most importantly it is the theme of this week’s TMI Tuesday. Tell us about your bed. 1. What size (King, queen, full, twin)? King size both at home and at YSL's which is where the action happens 2. What mattress construction (conventional springs, air bed, water bed, Tempurpedic-type)? spings and thank god a good one considering the activity it see's! 3. What type furniture (just a frame, headboard/footboard, canopy, trundle, etc)? Describe. At home its a modern leather bed, YSL's is without headboard. but a very funny story that happened on a bed with wheels is HERE 4. If your bed has headboard/footboard or bedposts, have you ever been tied to them? Ever tied anyone to them? For what purpose? tied to many other things, especially a ceiling hook that YSL has in the bedroom. an excellent example of this is HERE 5. What kind of sheets (cotton, linen, silk, flannel)? cotton and YSL whilst a bachelour does love his freshly laundered sheets that I thoroughly enjoy ruining, thankfully so does he (apologies darling for tonights damp patch) 6. What kind of blankets (cotton, wool, thermal, electric)? no blankets, i hate feeling hot in the night and if there is a top sheet I hate it tucked in. 7. What’s on top (bedspread, duvet,…)? Duvet, at home today is mocha satine cotton duvet cover and YSL has on (currently naked in his bed)rich cream damask 8. What kind of pillow (down, foam, fiberfill)? those memory foamy things Bonus: Fill in the blank and answer question. If YSL comes over, will you let them fuck you on your bed? Yes or no. No, lets try a room we've not dont at mine

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Kink & Fetish


Anticipation
Bondage Blowjob
Filling you up
Learn the rope of knots: Square knot
Public tease
Swinging in Paris
Switch: Between Dom & sub – A BDSM Interlude


Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships


A Porn and Masturbation Trifecta
Cathartic
Deal breakers
Deborah Sundahl’s Class & Female Ejaculation
How my pussy has changed
On Rejection
Outgrowing One-Nighters (At Least in Part)
The Good, the Bad, but Never the Ugly


Erotic Writing


4 O'clock in the Morning
At the Campsite
Brutal Passion
Cold Hot Cold
Empty
I want to spoil you
I'm a Bootlicker, and That's Okay
I'll Take Two Please! 
In the Soft Morning Light
Lolita Twenty-Twelve
My orgasm
Parked
Preparation
Peter and Sophie on Holiday
Slow tease
Sodden Sheets
The Guide
The First Time Again
Week Night Sex

Sinful Sunday - off to see the wizard

I have the red shoes and I'm so ready for the adventure.


The shoes and pvc look stockings are part of an outfit I have for our trip to the BDSM club, YSL seems to be approving my naughty choice.

This time in four weeks we will be there, in the naked city, Cap D'Agde, living the dream of any swinger, libertin or echangist as they say in France!

Cap D'Agde - round 2

Every morning this passed year I smiled at the sight of the shells on my bedside that I collected from the spot YSL said he loved me on the beach in Cap D'Agde. This last year together has been wonderful and rich with such adventures we have shared.

Our 2nd trip to Cap D'Agde I'm sure will be different, not least for my confidence has changed, I'm looking forward to being naked this time but also our relationship in this year has developed to such a wonderful and strong bond, I feel I can be myself entirely and I feel so very very loved by YSL.

The swinging adventures, including our nights at Le Glamour and visit to the BDSM club will be breath taking, the openly playing on the nudest beach and indulging in group moments will be memories I will never forget. For me though the part my body is utterly aching for is to be his for 9 days with interruption.

The Naughty Hangout - game / panorama

A couple of weeks ago we had 2 foursome's, this pic was taken at the end of the 2nd, a panorama of the end game.

4 weeks and 1 day to go!!!! Everything is booked and the biggest task ahead is planning my outfits! Just had another fitting today for a corset I'm having made especially for the trip. I will do a post later this week hopefully with all the trip updates.

TMI - what's your Fifty Shades?

What's your 50 shades?

1. I enjoy the idea that my partner wants to inflict pain on me that:

a. makes me curious
b. is titillating and sexually arousing
c. that leaves me screaming and/or crying because that’s the way I like it

Receiving pain is subjective to my mood, sometimes I ache for a thorough cropping and want to be pushed to the point of crying, it normally reflects my stress, frustration in other aspects of my life. YSL is good at reading my needs and pushing me just right. He also knows when to hold me and care for me.


2. Do you like being forced to dress or act in a way that is humiliating? If yes, please describe. If no, why not?

I'm not into humiliation I rather praise in the bedroom, statements like "good girl" or "come for me" are more likely to have my cunt salavating.

3. Do you like seeing bruises, scars, or marks that were caused during sex on either you or your partner? What kind of marks?

I do like to have a visual reminder but have to be careful not to have any marks hubby will see. I loved the bite marks YSL left on me once and one Dungeon Club visit left me with stripes. It turned me on every time I saw them.

4. Would you like to be forced to do sexual things that you don’t necessarily like to do? Yes or No.

I like the pretence of being forced but within the trust of our relationship. I have lots of fantasies based around this. I love YSL saying he is just using my holes or forcing me to cum again, it makes me feel so completely his.

5. Do you want to be forced to watch your lover with someone else? Yes, No or It depends.

I think I'd like that role play as I'm confident in our relationship, it would arouse me to see. I always enjoy watching others enjoy the pleasure he is capable of giving.

I also like the idea of him picking a man and instructing me to be fucked by them. Last year in Cap D'Agde YSL instructed a man to fuck my arse, it turned me on so much.


6. What dirty (sometimes inappropriate) things do you like to say to your sexual partner?

I love it when YSL tells me what he is going to do to me especially if I'm blindfolded or restrained, it drives me wild in such a good way.


Bonus: Finish this statement: I like being powerful in bed because __________ .

I like being overpowered, I want to feel helpless, taken and wanted.


20 million have read the book, love it or hate it, it's opened so many peoples minds to BDSM and helped them understand its not about hurting a partner, its all consensual pleasure. If you are just thinking about starting to play like 50 Shades of Grey I love this article on 'How to recreate some of the scenes' it's a good starting point for any beginner. CLICK HERE


And if you want a giggle this is super funny piss take of the book GIGGLE HERE

Sinful Sunday - booked

For those that have followed the blog this past year you will remember my trip to Cap D'Agde, Europe's biggest naturist and swingers resort. We have booked again, this time in 5weeks I will be in the naked city.

This pic was taken on our trip last year, we were off to Clair Obscur, the BDSM club in Cap D'Agde. If you want to read what we got up to that night as we did a full scene have a look here. All our other Cap D'Agde adventure, including pictures and video are also

CLICK HERE

The Naughty Hangout - theme 'Balls'

This was only going to go one direction with this as a them!

TMI Tuesday - Blankety Blank

Complete the sentences by filling in the blanks.




1. I could spend all day fucking but couldn’t stand five minutes being tickled.



2. I would love to have a robot in my house to do me because no one else ever does.



3. The older you get the more sex robots you get.



4. I want to order the robot when I get home.



5. My appetite for sex robots can never be satisfied.



Bonus: If I were a hoarder, I would hoard sex robots.

I think this better come with an industrial usage warrenty! REMOTE CONTROL FUCKING MACHINE!!


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Swinging and Safe Sex

Sexual health while swinging is paramount in my book yet when at clubs, parties or private meetings I’m frequently astounded by the lack of care and consideration of sexual health for themselves let alone the others they will effect.


Picture this... we are naked on the bed at a club, there are many guys to chose from but the tall black guy catches out eye, we invite him to join us and YSL gives him the nod he can fuck me if he puts on a condom. The look of horror falls across the face of the guy, he hasn’t brought any. Now we never go clubbing without a dozen packets but we aren’t there to supply them to the dim and needy, YSL sends him away and with no intention of letting him back in play, he has missed his chance. We have on several instances sent single males to go fetch condoms, why would you go to a venue with the intention of sex with strangers and have none with you??

My second point is those who will only play bareback. Again we see this often, just a few weeks ago we saw a profile which spouted the words “only clean people need apply as I only play bareback” this was followed by his disclaimer “if there are any pictures of me with a condom on in my profile its because I use them to wank with to keep the sheets clean”. SERIOUSLY? Or have I missed the news that soap and water prevents STD’s and pregnancy?

Another we have come across is the man who thinks his cock is too big for them. This happened recently and yes his cock was HUGE but YSL had gone to the chemist and got some XXXL ready so I could experience his monster cock. Alas I wasn’t enamoured by the cocks owner and I text YSL while he was at the bar that there would be no need for the XXXL as he wasn’t going to get to fuck me, although we are ready for the next time.

On other (many) occasions we’ve encountered the reluctant wearer of the condom. Only because we insist on safe sex will they put one on. While they put one on and the truth I believe lies here, they can’t keep an erection with a condom on. I’m baffled by this because if it was me I would be practicing at home getting used to them and making them part of play so that in a group scenario I wouldn’t be ‘pushing rope’.

For me and YSL (I think I can speak for him on this) our want to enjoy each other so intimately can only happen because of our complete trust in each other and our staunch attitude when playing with others. It saddens me to see all the single guys having unprotected sex at the clubs, many married and playing away, not considering their partners welfare at all.


If you are interested I wrote a post when me and YSL resigned from using condoms.

Sinful Sunday - real women

Centre of attention and enjoying each other, we might not be models but tonight the men in the room desire us so much, it's enough.

The Naughty Hangout - Colour

Red

I did wish I'd brought the Strap On

Don't you just love the Bigots

Thoughts I'd check through my formspring, I haven't looked in for a while and there are dozens of not so nice comments but these 2 did rather stand out.

I don't get why you would go on any website that is clearly about sex and a larger older woman and have the nerve to complain, that's why there is a small cross in the top corner of the page.

Jog on Mr Bigot I shall take your comment and stick it up my large old arse because I like it that way.